Friday, August 28, 2009

Mixed Emotions

Wow... with everyone going back to school and each and every person in my life going a million zillion miles an hour... just wow... that I have time to sit, and think, and enjoy what is left of this summer...

I say I have mixed emotions about this weekend. I say "mixed" because I don't know what other words describe it. I say this in the hopes of something pops out of the screen and hits me like a freight train... I know My God is big enough for this weekend! If I know that, then why should I have mixed emotions about this weekend???? My Savior, My GOD, MY REDEEMER, MY BEST FRIEND, MY ONE AND ONLY WAY OF SALVATION! CHRIST JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This weekend is going to rock everyone's socks off! We've built it up and up and all we can do is pray that God takes over this weekend, that He just simply shows off like only He can...

Dear God,
I just want to thank you. Thank you for loving me... thank you for dying for me! Thank you for loving me enough to send your son for me... I could never be more in debt for the price that was paid just for me to be saved... Jesus, you are my best friend, I pray that this weekend, I can show you off .... I want to be able to lift you up like I have never done before... This weekend is different than Ignite... I was hesitant, I was holding back, I was the road block and yet, YOU still moved, You moved me, the kids, the leaders, everyone involved, God, you are truly amazing and wonderful and awestruck and Jehovah... my Jesus, you... you love me... that love that no one else can take away from me, that hope that is within me, no one can take that away from me, there is something about the way I'm thinking, the way I'm praying God that You are setting something up... you are preparing a way for me this weekend... God I feel your presence, I know you are with me... my mixed emotions are gone... I'm full force, ready for this weekend... all because of YOU, all because you are my force, my refuge, my redeemer, my Christ... I love you Jesus, I trust you...
In your precious, sweet, love-filled name,
I just pray that you open my heart this weekend,

Saturday, August 22, 2009

I'm not the driver here... promise!

You would think I would blog more often... but I haven't... sorry blog readers! haha (all 4 of you...)

So, I'm playing golf tomorrow!!! My first time ever playing golf (a whole 18 holes and everything!) Should be in for an interesting, funny time!!!

Everybody, and I mean EVERYBODY!!!, is back in school, except for me :( I don't go back for another 2 weeks!!!! I'm still hangin out with friends, but not as much as before school :(

--Side note--
Final Desination- not scary at all! Just weird and creepy!!!!!!!!!!!1

This song has been the story of this summer, or more precisely, the past 2 weeks::
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Waiting... patiently... this is sooooooooooo hard!!! There are so many things going on in my life, so many new people, new experiences, new life changes... My God is so much biggger than all my worries, my doubts... He knows exactly what I need, where I am going, and every single little detail in my life... EVERY SINGLE DETAIL!!!!!! Then what's there to worry about? Nothing!!!
Ah... what a sigh of relief, to type that, and think on that for a moment... every detail is figured out by an all-knowing God!!! Anything from eating, talking, dating...

I guess this is what has gotten me thinking... I feel like I'm in the dark. I know God is there, carrying me through this time in my life... I just can't see where I'm going... and it shouldn't matter, I know God has a plan and a purpose for my life, so the future, or even the immediate future shouldn't matter, I just want to see something, I want to see where I am going.. it's like in a car, if I'm in the back seat, I have to see where we're going, or I get to feeling funny- kinda car sick, kinda not. But I know that I know that I know that my God is bigger than this doubt, bigger than my worries... He is carrying me through this, and it doesn't matter what, who, where, how, anything goes...

Dear God,
I pray that you open my heart. Open my heart to understanding, to knowing what You want for me. I pray that you take my worries away. Take my insignificant thoughts about being in the dark away. God, You are sooo much bigger than any problem I face, any issue I come across. So many times I fall short. I fall on my face everytime I try on my own. I thank you for picking me up, brushing me off, and putting me back on track. You are awesome! I love you Jesus!!! I trust you Jesus!!

In Your precious, sweet saving son's name I pray,

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Holy Flippin Cow!

It has been a month since my last blog!???!?!?!?!!

WOW So much has gone on, so little time! Who am I kidding, I have another month before school starts back :)

God has really worn me out... He is wearing me down so much that all I can do is look to Him... I try and I try and I try again and again. I get no where. I go to anybody and everybody, anyone that has two ears to hear, I try to get their help... I don't want to accept the fact that they can't help me... I'm dying... not a physical death, (not that I know of anyway) My spirit... I am so worn out from life, just thinking about this situation, or that situation, or what is going to happen if I do this, or date her, or hang out with them, or party here, or work there... there are soooo many options and soooo many doors and traps in life that I can't handle them all...

A good way to handle this way of thinking::

1.) Deep breath.
2.) Relax. God is in control.
3.) Duh! Jesus!??!? He is flippin sweet!
4.) Fall in love with Jesus and you're good to go...
5.) Jesus takes care of everything after step 4...

I know there are tons and tons of scripture that point to what to do in situations where you are feeling disappointed, or down... for instance, 2 Chronicles 20:15-- Do not be afraid or disappointed, for the battle is not yours, but God's. or what about Jerimiah 29:11 -- for I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper and not to harm, a hope and a future.

These are great... but the verse that sticks out in my head right now is the one that I have written on a rubber band around my wrist... Luke 14:27-- Anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple...

What cross do I have to bear? Sin? I love sin, I'm human, we all do, honestly, the conviction of that love for sin, that's a big cross, a very deep thought, so it's not that bad unless you really think about it... my cross is that daily fight to do what I know is right... the thing that my Savior would say 'well done, my good and faithful servant!" I fail miserable at that, every single day... but by the grace of God, I am forgiven of my short comings and He embraces me with His love... I want to be His disciple, I want to be His child, I want Jesus to be my BFF I want to fall so in love with Jesus that this world can't even think about touching me...

What will it cost me? what will this devotion to Jesus cost? Will it cost me my friends, family, job, education??? What am I willing to give for the cause of the cross? what am I willing to do??? Jesus DIED for me, and what do I do? How can I NOT want to be like Him, serve Him, love Him???

Dear God,
I pray tonight that you open my heart, open my heart to Your will. Open my eyes to the doors before me. Open the doors you want open. Move me, Lord, move me!!! I feel as if a mountain is in the way, and I am stuck in the valley. I know you are with me, and will never forsake me, so I do not fear. I pray that you blow me away with the view at the top of this valley. This valley has many holes and traps, and many "quick routes" to the top. God, you are my only way, You are the reason I want to reach the top. I want to go where you lead me. Lord, lead me... mold me... I pray tonight that You continue to pore Your grace and mercy upon me, that You continue to lead me through this valley, this narrow road through the valley. I pray that I fall more and more in love with my savior, I pray that no matter what this world throws at me, that I do not veer off the track laid before me. I pray dear Jesus that you take me by the hand and show me the way to go.

In your Name, Amen.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

God likes showing off... even in softball

I need to get to the computer more often! I haven't blogged in almost a week!

So much has been going on, so much great a glorious things that my God is showing off with...

Anything and everything, God has completely taken over my life, and I love it!

For example, last night... I was playing some church league softball...
It was a close game... really close... We were winning in the bottom of the 5th 12-6... We made some costly errors in the field, and the score quickly became 12-11, we're still winning... Well, the next batter hits a gapper, the guy from first is going around 3rd and scores, the guy who hit the ball was coming into 3rd. The umpire in the field was covering 2nd, and the home plate umpire was covering home (nobody saw 3rd) I was playing 3rd and got the ball, placed in front of the bag, waited on the slide... TAGGED HIM! BEFORE HE EVER TOUCHED THE BAG! I'm thinking "He's out, we got him, let's go hit!" The umpire in the field had his back to the play, and couldn't overrule the man behind the plate... That umpire came over and yelled "Safe! Around the tag"

I was livid!!! I said "there's no way??? I had the glove waiting on him, the ball even beat him here?!?!"

"No, no. He slid around the base, and then you tagged him."

I would have been fine with a missed call, because the runner was out. But I cannot get over the fact that he LIED about it!! He was behind home plate and makes that call, ridiculous!
The other team ended up scoring 3 more runs, and we were trailing 12-14...

After the inning, I went directly to the umpire in the field and apologized. I felt terrible for calling him out when he couldn't do anything about it. He knew my dad and said "I've chewed your dad out plenty of games, I understand. don't worry about it." Then I went to the umpire behind the plate and apologized to him, I told him " I'm sorry for over reacting, we're human and we all make mistakes, i apologize" he said "it's OK, i saw the play, he was in there, and then you tagged him." i asked him one last time, "after this question, I'm dropping it, 'where were you when you made that call?'" he replied "from me to that pole" (about 35-40 feet) i said "OK, thanks Andy" Being an umpire myself, i knew he hadn't seen that play from 40 feet off... but I dropped it, and continued to play, God gave me the ability to swallow my pride, anger, and attitude to apologize to the umpires... even though I still believe I was right, and they were wrong, they were in charge, and I questioned it...

We ended up losing 18-15 (on some very close fair/foul calls too I might add)

But we still ended up with 3rd place for the season, which ain't too shabby :) We start the post-season tournament this weekend, and we're hoping to have better luck, and bring home the big trophy!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Ignite '09

I'm finally getting time to write about Ignite!!! WOW! Words cannot express how amazing this weekend was! It was truly a humbling experience to say the least...

First off, I was just going to go. I had no idea what I was getting myself into... I did not know if I was going as a youth or a chaperone. I quickly found out on that Friday afternoon, I was a chaperone. Before I could go on the trip, I had to finish my Stats exam (which I made a 90 on :) ) then I hurried home to pack and off to the church. I was at the church waiting on the bus at 2... we didn't have to be there til 3... I was getting very excited about the weekend!

Around 3 o'clock, everybody starts arriving and loading the bus... I was put in charge of taking roll... oh the joys of trying to spell people's names. I think we ended up with 33 on the bus, and 38 for the weekend.

Well, once we finally got down there... (2 hours plus on a tour bus) we unpacked and some team building activities. (pass the lepracaun shoes :)) It was so much fun!

We finally began our 1st session (of 4) We had one brave young lady raise her hand in the back and become saved that first night! It was awesome! God was just beginning to show off! That first night, I, along with some of the other chaperones, got lights out at 12, then bandaided the little rascals in. It was a very interesting night (only 2 busted bandaids) The busted bandaids weren't kids sneaking out, just opening the doors at the sounds outside (supposedly)

We continued to have 3 more sessions (all on Saturday) and the food was great there! Surprisingly!

During that first session, Scott began to talk about 1 Peter 3:15 "be able to give an account of the hope that is in you" and if you don't have a testimony, tonights the night for it... that one girl raised her hand... it was simply amazing! She was one of the ones I had been praying for on this trip, along with countless others... words cannot exress how amazing this weekend was... for that one girl and for the 4 others that turned their lives over to Christ!!!

I have been trying to write this blog for about two hours now... and this is all I've gotten... I keep getting distracted... If I think of more to say about the weekend, i'll blog it later :/

Monday, June 22, 2009

13 Rules to follow when your life hits rock bottom...

Rule 1: Jesus.
Rule 2: There is more to life than just here and now. This world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of God, you will live forever. 1 John 2:17
Rule 3: It's not about me. Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in him. Colossians 1:16
Rule 4: I am not an accident. I am your Creator, You wer in my care even before you were born. Isaiah 44:2
Rule 5: I'm as close to God as I choose to be. Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you. James 4:8
Rule 6: Life is a test and a trust. Unless you are faithful in the small matters, you won't be faithful in larger ones. Luke 16:10
Rule 7: Living on purpose is the path to peace. You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in You. Isaiah 26:3
Rule 8: The heart of worship is surrender. Surrender your whole being to Him to be used for righteous purposes. Romans 6:13
Rule 9: I was planned for God's pleasure. The Lord takes pleasure in his people. Psalm 149:4
Rule 10: God wants to be my best friend. Friendship with God is reserved for those who reverence Him. Psalm 26:14
Rule 11: God smiles when I trust him completely. The Lord is pleased with those who worship Him and trust His love. Psalm 147:11
Rule 12: This world is not my home. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is ETERNAL. 2 Corinthians 4:18
Rule 13: It's all about Him. For everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by his power, and everything is for His glory. Romans 11:36

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Just another Sunday... Hold my heart

Happy Father's Day first off... a great day to be a DAD! (not that I am one or anything...)

But just to type about nonsense this morning...


Just kidding, the real reason for blogging. There's a lot going on in my life that I have no control over. So much, that I try to grab everything and run like a wild fire. I'm tired of running... I'm tired of holding on... I'm tired of trying to control my life... I'm tired of the mediocrity of my life...

I've had a radio/clock in my room, next to my bed, for who knows how long... and this morning, I decided to turn on the radio while I was getting ready for Sunday School. God just loves to show off I believe because after a long long long night of a heavy heart, God let me listen to this song by Tenth Avenue North entitled " Hold My Heart"... I would put the entire song on here, but I'll just put the chorus and a verse:

So many questions without answers, Your promises remain
I can't see but I'll take my chances to hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

One tear in the driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart.

Hold my heart, could you hold my heart?
Hold my heart.

And that is exactly what MY GOD did... He held my heart, He opened me up enough so He could come live in me and be glorified today... He helped me hold back the tears, hold off the bad attitude, hold off biting somebody's head, holding off the world... just so I could get back up on my feet one more time... My God is so good, that in the mist of all this turmoil and trouble and pain, He is there... holding my heart, He is picking up all the pieces, He is putting me back together for His purpose and not my own.

Dear God,
I just simply want to thank you! Thank you for saving me from this world. You say in 1 John that the things of this world will not last, but the things not of this world, will last forever. You last forever, I last forver in you Oh God! I pray that you take my heart into Your will. Do your will through me, whatever it takes. Whatever it takes.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

What a glorious day!

As it comes to the weekend, I got to thinking what all I had to do. I have to work. I have to work a total of 29 hours this weekend. Yea, do the math! This is only my "real job" not my Ambassador job. If you throw that in there, it'll be around 35 hours this weekend. WOOO! I have so much I need to study, for all two of my classes, with 3 big tests in two weeks (which I need to knock out of the park!) Then get ready for Ignite! And work, and play softball, and get my girlfriend, and mother a birthday present. WOW! It doesn't sound like a lot, but there is very little time to do important things and then day to day things...

Deep breath...

Ah! God is so good at letting me calm down. I get so wrapped up in day to day activities and planning that I over plan, a lot... God is my only plan this summer, everything I do, I do to give Him glory!

Dear God, please do whatever it takes to make my life what you want it to be. Whatever it takes! I pray that you guide me into your will, not only this summer, but the rest of my life. Dear God, I pray for my family, and Kylie, that you guide them this summer as we are all SOOO busy! God, You know the plans of my life, I pray that you open up my eyes so that I may see what you have in store for me. ~Amen

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

The best $2.99 ever spent...

Today, I had to cancel eating breakfast at Chickfila with my youth minister to take my brother to golf. Let me tell you, this golf course is in the middle of nowhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean seriously, I thought my small town was in the middle of nowhere, and then I found this place. My oh so great mother had me directions to and from, so you're thinking "no problem, take the brother, go get some breakfast and be about your day." Not sooo fast slick. I get there just fine. Zach, aka "map", did a great job saying "go this way, this road Andy, not here, here!" So I drop him off and say bye. I call Mom and tell her "the baby eagle has landed and I'm on my way to eat some good Chickfila breakfast anyway." Well, God had a different plan. I turn out of the golf course like I turned in. I figure I can stay on that road until it ran out, because I had turned onto it at a "T" crossing... Well, the road I was on, never came to a "T". Instead, I crossed the Broad River, twice, a few railroad tracks, and it began to rain, so I couldn't see the road signs. After ten minutes of praying through the rain, driving on this single road in the middle of nowhere with a cop on my bumper probably saying "what the crap is this kid doing out here??", God answered my prayers. He let me have 3 bars of signal! I was able to use the GPS on my phone! I downloaded the week long version of Verizon Wireless Navigator, 2.99 for 5 days. That prayer went something like this, "Dear God, please let me get out of this place. It's raining, I'm hungry, there's a cop behind me, I can't see, I need to get to school, I can't call my mom, she won't know where I am, please guide me."

Well, turns out, I had gone almost allll the way to 74, and for those of you who don't know where I am, that highway is a good hour away from my home, or anything close to anywhere I needed to go. I was parked ontop of hill beside "Shiloh Baptist Church" andwas very very north on Hwy. 221. I've always wanted to travel 221 up as far as it goes just to see the scenery, well, I got my shot. I finally got to take 221 all the way to Chesnee, where, God said, "I'll take care of you, forget Chickfila, you get Bantam Chef!" (Which has the best biscuits and hashbrowns ever!) So, I got me some breakfast afterall...

All this is going on after I drop Zach off at 8:30, and have to back at school by 10:00... I pulled into the school parking lot at 9:45... God is sooo good! I was able to eat my breakfast and not be late for school! I even got to skip class (legally of course) and give a tour of the campus!

Today turned out to be pretty awesome after all!

Monday, June 15, 2009

A Personal Plan

You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you. ~Isaiah 26:3

God has such a personal plan for each and every one of His children, that how can we reject it? Especially in the world we live in today, all the non-believers that flood our government, our schools, our work places. God has a big plan... a HUGE plan... so no worries...

There are so many little blurps that I want to type and put out here, but there is just no time for one sitting...

My night devotional used that verse mentioned above. It talked about how God had a specific plan just for David as he was about to face Goliath. (this story is in 1 Samuel btw) King Saul wanted to give David all these heavy things to 'protect' him, but all David needed was God and a slingshot. God had a plan to use David's slingshot skills to destroy Goliath. There was nobody else that could have made that shot to kill a giant who stood over 9 feet tall!?!?!?! Thinking about this story and how God works on a personal level gets me to thinking about how God worked like this in my life. Working backwards now... try to follow... I am currently working in the Admissions Office. To know about that job, I had to know Andrea. Andrea was the track and field coach when I was a freshman. I was a discus thrower as a freshmen (hence where I met Andrea.) I had to like discus to participate in the sport before college. I was introduced to the sport of throwing objects by my AP History teacher in high school. I was taking AP History only because it helped boost my GPA. I wanted to boost my GPA because I wanted to get into a great college. I wanted to get into a great college because that is the way my parents raised me. My parents raised me this way because that is what they wanted for me (to go to a good school, get a good education, and make a life for myself) They had faith in our God that He would have a plan for their son, a plan to prosper and not to harm as proclaimed in Jeremiah.

In this simple, yet complex example of how God works in awesome and mysterious ways... That my parents had to have the faith that God had a plan for me, that I would want to go to a good school, so I took AP classes, that my AP History teacher knew something about the discus and wanted to tell me about it, that I took up the sport because I liked it, I stuck with it through out high school and into college, I met a Jesus-lover named Andrea as my coach, and now I am working in Admissions... wow... the chain can go wayyyy farther back, but you catch my drift (hopefully)

This whole thing is about how God works on a personal level, so personal, we can't even notice what is going on most of the time.... He is the ultimate giver and planner of our lives... This video shows how we as "Christians" over look the great giver that God is...

Ok, now that yesterday is covered...

Today... I woke up like normal, except the phone was ringing off the hook :(((( I do not appreciate people who call at 8:47 in the morning, when I am suppose to be getting up at 8:50 anyway... So, I got up 3 minutes early, and read my daily devotional that my wonderful girlfriend gave me this past Christmas. I haven't been reading this devotional daily, but every now and then, I'll pick it up, thumb through to a random page and read. Well today, I thought, I'll just read today's actual reading. It went something like this:

We make choices everyday. Choices like what to eat, what to wear, what to say, when to brush our teeth (even you even do!) All these things are our choices, but there are other things that aren't. Such as the weather, our family, the economy, how our food tastes to us. We serve a God that loves us so much that He allows us to make the biggest decision of our life: where we're spending eternity. He loves us so much that we can choose Heaven or Hell, just that simple. The biggest hugest most crucial decision anybody could ever make, and God lets us choose??? That's crazy! I believe that just shows how awesome a God I serve... What about you? Do you serve that awesome a God?

Update from Yesterday

Yesterday was Sunday. I went to church all by myself because my family was sound asleep, knocked out from a long weekend of traveling. I was optimistic towards Sunday School, we had over 30! It was awesome, I felt there was a lot of good discussion. Then off to preachin'. Pastor Chris, his wife, and about 4 other couples went to Pigeon Forge on their lil' "motor-sickles." Talked to Pastor last night, no rain, they had a blast! But anyways, back to Sunday morning. Scott Miller, our new Youth Minister, got to preach. He did a great job! "Don't waste your life" was awesome, great message... even the curve ball at the end! HA I got to take a nap yesterday afternoon! I love naps! I was the only one from my family to go to evening service also :/ Again, Scott did a great job. "Focus: In a world full of Distractions" Awesome awesome awesome awesome! God is working in marvolous ways at Buck Creek. I'm so excited to watch our church grow like a wildfire for Christ!

Side note: The Sunday School lesson tied into the "Focus" message. Using 1 John 2:15-17. 15Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. 17The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

Thursday, June 11, 2009


VBS is the most exhausting time of the year! I don't know how, or why, but when I get home at 1030 from VBS, I'm exhausted!!! I don't know if it's because I run laps around the church in a "tunic" or what?!?! But this year is going great! We've averaged over 100 kids each night and over 50 workers! That's awesome!!! There are a lot of people that get things done behind the scenes, and I'd like to thank them on here, but I don't have my list (I'd hate to leave somebody out!) But I would definitely like to thank all my Drama Team members!!! (Ya'll are awesome!!!!!!) The food has been the best this year, thanks a million kitchen staff!!! All the festival workers, "Ya'll are doing a great job!!!" To all the family leaders "Smile!" You'll see those pictures soon, no worries. And lastly, our pastorial staff, ya'll have done a great job! Scotticus, Yo Yo Yo Pastor Kenny, Preacha Chris. Keep up the great work Buck Creek!

To God be the Glory!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Web Pages

Trying to create your own webpage is a HUGE PROJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I did not think it would be that big of a deal, pero, it is! There is a lot of work that goes into making just a single page. If you want it to look just right you have to have the code because of the limited capabilities of the webpage designers...

O the joy of Web Page design!!!

First Blog!

This is my first blog ever! Woah! Who would have thought this day would have come???